I am learning things about your left arm;

Things that I hope will bring the way that I know it closer to the way I’m sure you know it. Things like… the outside of your pinky knuckle has a little different skin because, being left handed, you rest and slide your hand around on that point when you write. (and you’ve been doing a lot of writing lately filling up your journal of fun facts) moving up your arm, you have a birthmark on your forearm close to your wrist. It is very light but still a natural tan like the rest of your beautiful skin (largest organ of the body). Right next to your birthmark you have a small mole. This is fun because if all the little hairs that grow from your mole group together in the grain of your hair they seem slightly, very slightly, darker than the other hairs, but as soon as you pull them back from the grain of your hair they all look exactly like all the other little hairies. And that’s about as far as I am for now.
Now you may not see that as me showing you how much I love you, but for me that’s exactly what that is. I took a lot of time and energy focusing on just one small area of your body so that I could feel more intimately bonded with you by knowing some of the little things about yourself, that I’m sure you take for granted, but I truly find facinating.
It is truly hard for me because as I sit here on the floor of my room, just out of the shower, and I look at my left arm and I see no area of my pinky, no cute birthmark and no mole that has magical hairs and the perfect size that when, just felt naturally on your arm feels like it is just a darker spot on your arm, but when the little hairies are pulled back and it is closely touched you can feel how it is slightly raised; I see my arm as boring, plain and simple. You are beautiful to me, so beautiful and I say that right now only considering you left arm from your forearm forward.
Yeah, we fought last night, but I’m over that stuff, I love you, I’m working towards our future, not just mine. I don’t like to fight with you, but I am glad it happened. I’m glad it happened because had it not I would not have had that oppoirtunity to sit there next to you and caress your fingers individually until you fell asleep and then taken time to examine all of those little areas of you and realize how beautifully and wonderfully you were made and thank God for all of your simplistic beauty and just fall in love with you that much more.
I love you Kara and I can not imagine living my life without you.

• 13 March 2009