… I know you don’t think I hate you, but sometimes that’s how it feels for me :( I love you so much and had such a wonderful day yesterday and I love taking care of you when you don’t feel well… I have not used Kissedd to show how much I love and appreciate our relationship lately because my life has felt completely out if control with no rythm or pattern and you know how much I hate that… I’ve just been digging for some order and reason in my life so intently that I’ve forgotten about all other things than those directly in front of me because I think that right after I do that I’ll be back to the schedule and can fit in all the things I usually do and feel happy and normal…
I know that I should try to build a life around the vast changes that I always allow into my life, because I love change, but I haven’t prepared for it properly.
Sorry that this has caused you doubt and I hope you could follow my train of thought. I do love you so much and adore our relationship. Sorry again. Chomp Chomp! Eat up the changes.