When you don’t feel busy

or like you’ve got a million other things to do you are granted the ability to think, truly think. Truly thinking takes your brain to those places you love, the places you didn’t know how much you loved until you could truly think about them.

This evening I am alone. I have finished my required tasks for the evening. There is nothing here to distract me. And I’ve had to time realsize the situation I’m in.

I am truly thinking.

I am thinking about you, about your familiy, about my families, about this past weekend, about love, about our wedding, about our marriage.

Though some thoughts are sad (the funeral, me being alone) most of my thoughts are joyful (the love of family, our amazing opportunity to be married and do the rest of our lives together as one, great memories from a date and a shower this weekend)

Overall I am happy. I have speckles of sadness here and there but my excitement and appreciation for what I have keeps me happy.

I love you.

• 20 April 2010