I continually find myself wanting to go back to the past, wether it’s hours ago when we were lying on the couch watching Christmas Vacation, or years ago when we were riding together in my white civic.

I miss the past and I want to go back there and re-live it forever…

but then I realize, today is tomorrows yesterday. (as I type this it makes me want to drive to your house after work; we’ll remember the things we do together, but not how much gas money we’ve spent) I need to do today what I will be happy to remember and wish I could go back to.

I love you and I am so sorry we are not married yet, I feel so helpless in the matter, yet I am the only one who can do anything, I am doing everything I can love.

I miss you, I want to live with you, I want to be with you always. I can’t wait for your schedule to be less stressful but you are handling it very well.

I don’t know what else to write besides I love your dearest, with a passion you know not of and with a love that is so mad it’s not “officially forever” yet. You are my everything Kara, and I am so happy we are still making ‘yesterdays’ worth going back to.

(this is not official, but “Will you marry me, Kara?”)

the always kind of love is yours forever from me