notes to accompany our adventure
Good morning button.
I’m very sorry last nights conversation probably wasn’t the best for you, I know I was suh-LEEP-ee. I wish I could have been more aware of what was going on, I do love you and I’m very glad we talked. I hope it was helpful to you.
You better have a fab day today, I believe it is going to be nice… I’m wearing shorts… Ahhh it feels weird!
I miss you and can’t wait to see you tonight. Sometimes it is very important to me to choose to do something that you want and that means a lot to you rather than what I want at a time when both are available. It is a form of self sacrifice, but it is not done grudgingly, it is done very willfully to help me keep you important and value what you value. Do not complain or try to make me change my mind, I have decided. And I love you.
Have a terrific day at work. I know I’m excited. I’m going to wear my five fingers today!
I love you forever sweetie.
You’re bored…
Papa love you, jar.
I love you so much!
I don’t want to leave you another day Kissedd-less. So I’m not sure what to write… I love you baby dearest. I want you to have a great day today, learn what you can in school, have fun tonight hanging out with the friends.
You are my favorite! And I love you beyond, wait, I mean… And I love you more! Rawr!
I love you tons darling and miss you so much already. Have fun. You are the best!
Your day is going to be amazing!
Have a great one dear. Don’t miss me too much, I know I miss you already. Have fun with friends! (but don’t expect it to be the same…)
lovers you :)
I am learning things about your left arm;
Things that I hope will bring the way that I know it closer to the way I’m sure you know it. Things like… the outside of your pinky knuckle has a little different skin because, being left handed, you rest and slide your hand around on that point when you write. (and you’ve been doing a lot of writing lately filling up your journal of fun facts) moving up your arm, you have a birthmark on your forearm close to your wrist. It is very light but still a natural tan like the rest of your beautiful skin (largest organ of the body). Right next to your birthmark you have a small mole. This is fun because if all the little hairs that grow from your mole group together in the grain of your hair they seem slightly, very slightly, darker than the other hairs, but as soon as you pull them back from the grain of your hair they all look exactly like all the other little hairies. And that’s about as far as I am for now.
Now you may not see that as me showing you how much I love you, but for me that’s exactly what that is. I took a lot of time and energy focusing on just one small area of your body so that I could feel more intimately bonded with you by knowing some of the little things about yourself, that I’m sure you take for granted, but I truly find facinating.
It is truly hard for me because as I sit here on the floor of my room, just out of the shower, and I look at my left arm and I see no area of my pinky, no cute birthmark and no mole that has magical hairs and the perfect size that when, just felt naturally on your arm feels like it is just a darker spot on your arm, but when the little hairies are pulled back and it is closely touched you can feel how it is slightly raised; I see my arm as boring, plain and simple. You are beautiful to me, so beautiful and I say that right now only considering you left arm from your forearm forward.
Yeah, we fought last night, but I’m over that stuff, I love you, I’m working towards our future, not just mine. I don’t like to fight with you, but I am glad it happened. I’m glad it happened because had it not I would not have had that oppoirtunity to sit there next to you and caress your fingers individually until you fell asleep and then taken time to examine all of those little areas of you and realize how beautifully and wonderfully you were made and thank God for all of your simplistic beauty and just fall in love with you that much more.
I love you Kara and I can not imagine living my life without you.
Baby I do LOVE you! rawr.
RAWR!
I love you so much, you are the best!
I’m stressed…
not so much worried as I am stressed, I’m sorry that I am, but thank youngor being here with me. It truly helps a lot. I know we’ll figure it out and I know God has a plan and I’m excited for it, but I just need to learn to take steps towards it bodly and fearlessly.
I love you and sorry for the short post, I’m just stressed and in a hurry. I love you so much boobooberry; you are my everything!
I love my hair, thanks boo
Three hour naps keep me up at night.
I am awake at 1am, but I’m very tired now… I played some ps3 and what not… I love you baby, and had a great day yesterday, our nap was nice…
Sorry that I’ve been weird lately, I just can’t get my life going on the track I want it to and I am to blame, but we both have to deal with it, I’m sorry, you’ve done a lot to help and I truly appriciate it. You are the best. Rawr. Call me to wake me up :)
You’re getting bangs
and I’m very excited! Oh yeah! Have a great day, sorry that I can’t come with you… I just don’t want to miss workshops. Thank you so much for working baby, we are on such a strong journey towards our goals, and you are keeping it up strong. I love you for that… I am too, and I will not steal money to spend on selfish desires.
Have a terrific day and I love you tonzo! Huge and a big Kiss!
I’m sorry you think I hate you…
… I know you don’t think I hate you, but sometimes that’s how it feels for me :( I love you so much and had such a wonderful day yesterday and I love taking care of you when you don’t feel well… I have not used Kissedd to show how much I love and appreciate our relationship lately because my life has felt completely out if control with no rythm or pattern and you know how much I hate that… I’ve just been digging for some order and reason in my life so intently that I’ve forgotten about all other things than those directly in front of me because I think that right after I do that I’ll be back to the schedule and can fit in all the things I usually do and feel happy and normal…
I know that I should try to build a life around the vast changes that I always allow into my life, because I love change, but I haven’t prepared for it properly.
Sorry that this has caused you doubt and I hope you could follow my train of thought. I do love you so much and adore our relationship. Sorry again. Chomp Chomp! Eat up the changes.