notes to accompany our adventure
Always know
You are the never ending passion of my life!
Isn’t today Dino-link day??
I try to fix them.
Glad I could help love.
Also, today will be my day that I am fasting from my phone. For me it so hard to make that decision that I know it’s the decision that I need to make.
What that means for you is that the only way to communicate with me directly is via phone call, I won’t be checking email, text, websites, or other apps (on my phone) but may still access them from a computer. Call and leave voicemails if I can’t answer and I am so sorry if this causes trouble for you. I’m praying for you and I do miss you; a lot! Sorry love, but I am happy to see what tomorrow morning feels like.
I love you always. Kisses!
Sincerely in love with you.
I had a great Suday
Thank you for being awesome and putting up with me for the day.
The amount of things you get done in a day amazes me. You amaze me.
The Perfect Dress
I often think of the future and wonder what type of dress I’m going to be. Will I be the perfect color for you? Will I have just the right amount of skin showing? Am I going to be just the right amount of smooth? Or just the right amour of ruffles? Will I stay clean during the wedding and reception? Will I give you the freedom to dance in me and be able to smile and enjoy the moments you are having? Will Dan like me? Will I be able to come off quickly when the time is right for that? Will I let you down the stairs easily? Will I flow right while you walk down the isle towards your future husband?
As I’ve pondered this and thought a lot. As much as I want these things, your wedding isn’t going to make me any different than the way I am. On that day I’m still going to be Your Wedding Dress, I’ll be too tight in that one area, too loose in that other spot, and I just won’t curve the perfect way over there. I’m going to be exactly the color that I am, that will not change. Im not going to be the “perfect dress” from the magazines. I’m hoping that’s not what you want though; I’m hoping you will understand that by not being perfect I am being Yours, exactly yours, and I hope that’s going to be ok.
And the same goes for you, sweet Kara, I’m not going into this wedding hoping that you are a completely different shape, that you have made immense sacrifices to conform to me. I know that we aren’t a perfect fit right now, but I think we want the same things from that day; fun, a husband, and love. That’s what I’ll be here for, I’ll be here to support you, to make you look as beautiful as I can (and trust me, you don’t need much help with that). I’m here to make Dan see you and just lose it inside (). And I think that if we work together over the next 30 days that will happen for sure (I also believe if we do nothing it will happen as well).
To get there I think it is much easier for me to change, much less stressful, and much less pressure to put on yourself. Let’s face it, I’ve got nothing else going on. Yes, changing me may leave some slight scars, but, when you think about it, isn’t it those slight imperfections that you and Dan love about eachother so much, and although you may want to change them about yourself, and you feel everyone else would change them as well, you guys are the ones who would never change that about eachother? The things that make you different than everyone else, that nobody “should like”, are the exact things you love most about eachother. Let me take the heat on this, sweetie, and… try to embrace my imperfections, I feel Dan will, without question, and who’s opinion is it that matters most on that day?
If we aren’t worried about the pressures of that day and the strains on our relationship can’t you see all the fun memories you can foresee? You fitting into me on that last day you are without a husband. Us carefully stepping down the stairs just minutes before you are his wife. Walking down the isle with your dad while all of your friends and family are reveling in your beauty. Saying “I Do” while holding Dan’s hands. Running through the ribbon line after the ceremony. Jumping for photos. Dancing with your husband, and DANCING with your husband. Sneaking away to the bridal room for some kissing of your husband. Eating your delicious cake. Riding in the car to St. Joe. Getting up to the room and watching Dan struggle to get me off of you… All that sounds great to me, what do you think? I think that day is going to be amazing and our attitude going into it is going to make it that much better. I am so excited! Thank you for letting me be a part that glorious day with you.
-Your Wedding Dress
30!
Your dress is going to be beautiful, oh so beautiful. I know it’s difficult, but I also know you are wise and have to ability to stay in the correct perspective. There are a lot of things we can invest our energy on these days and I think that this dress is a temptation to invest your energy on something of less value than others.
I will support you with anyway you feel or anything you do, but always remember I am not going to think any less of you if your dress looks different from before I ever saw it. It will look beautiful, but more importantly, You will look beautiful in it.
You are going to look beautiful. I know it’s easy to get stressed out in situations like this. But we ARE getting married and you will look great and I am very excited and will help you in every way. I love you, forever.